August 30, 2014

Had a vivid dream where the whole universe was out in front of me and disconnected from me such that I was somehow un-identified with my experience.  I was mostly experiencing my face and so I started making faces, noticing how that felt physically, and finding that the experience of it was not “mine” and had nothing whatsoever to do with me.  Then I got up out of bed and continued making faces while walking but noticed I couldn’t see well. This caused me to immediately realize I was out of my body and I laughed and found myself in bed thinking I was awake but it was a false awakening.  I opened my physical eyes a few seconds later.

While the realization was happening it was very real and natural and I had the thought that it’s always been like this. It was a very “here and now” experience but it faded quickly and has left me feeling somewhat detached from everything, as if I’m in a lucid dream right now. later I watched a Rupert Spira video about identification and it had a strong affect on me.  I’ll post that next.