March 5, 2014

More and more I find myself being directed to just being still, quiet, and alert.  All efforts are seen as wrong moves with regard to enlightenment. There is nothing my body can do to get it – nowhere it can go – nothing my thoughts can think to get it  – nothing I can believe in enough to get it – nothing I can do – best I can do is do nothing – go with the flow of what already is – presence is doing nothing – anything else is just twisting myself into a pretzel – no amount of  trying to BE or to WAKE UP will do it.  It’s like a clay person morphing into infinite shapes and forms in an effort  to find its “clay-ness” – frustrating and futile.  I can’t even “BE” because “AM” has beat me to it.  Can I recognize it? [re-cognize] This is less a doing than a surrender to “not doing” or to letting things do as they will while being alert and present.  Recognize the self-recognition that is being missed by frenetic attention.  You just have to drop it.  The frenetic part. It’s all distraction.  Let enlightenment be enlightenment while you’re getting on with life, meditation, or whatever.