September 18, 2014

Yesterday I was walking up the stairs and feeling a bit frustrated because it seemed hard to do self-inquiry at that moment because I had to participate in the world of “doing things” like walking up stairs. I felt trapped in being identified as a person in this reality. Then it suddenly occurred to me that nothing was happening – that this reality I was buying into was like a movie on a theater screen and for the screen there is nothing happening. The screen remains completely unaffected by the events in the movie, and is always present. I remembered that I am consciousness and not its content, and this led me back to recognizing that “being” itself is the source and destination of self-inquiry. This recognition is still with me and shows me that my true inquiry or meditation can never be disturbed by whatever is happening, and that in fact, nothing is happening!

I don’t expect anyone to get this but it’s just something I’m sensing now. It relates to time being an illusion and everything being awareness.