March 2, 2014

I was washing dishes and there was a moment of contentment where I noticed how dangerous contentment can be because in that moment I noticed a feeling that said “I don’t need enlightenment right now.”  There was something in me that wished it could stay in that moment where everything was OK so that I didn’t have to venture out into the unknown of trying to wake up. It was like a false sense of safety and it scared me a little.  I realized how alluring a sense of security can be and how any sense of security is a lie since it can only be temporary. So any allure of feeling good and wanting to stay there goes directly into the box.  It reminds me of the Sirens’ song.  First you are enchanted and you forget where you were going.  Then you’re smashed to pieces.  I must remain vigilant!