July 2009

I developed a strange cyst on my right lower arm which looked like an infection or an insect bite.  I saw two doctors who had no idea what it was. They gave me antibiotics and did skin and blood tests.  I got a bit worried and thought it might be cancer but that was ruled out. Still there were moments when I thought it might be serious enough to kill me.  I knew this was irrational but during this time while worrying about death I decided to make self-realization my primary purpose in life.  I have a mission which is also a primary purpose but the path to awakening became more of a reality right then.  I mentally addressed this resolution to Ramana Maharshi as a sincere vow.  I received an immediate reply of  “You are initiated,” which I did not expect.  I saw a vague silhouette of him in a vision.  My next thought was “Hmmm, what have I got myself into?”  Mainly because somewhere inside I felt undeserving.  The cyst was psycho-somatic.  When I realized the cause, it healed and disappeared. I guess it served its purpose!